Well, Thank You.

Sit back and relax.

Our minds are usually clustered with the things that we want. The things we have wished for, but were never granted. Our minds are more fond of figuring out why we didn't get this nor that. But hey, have we ever just sat back and pondered upon those things we didn't even wish for or even thought of, but Allah have granted them to us? Think about it. When were we ever satisfied with everything Allah have given to us? When were we ever thankful for every single meager bit of our life? Are we even thankful right this second?

Carpe diem.

Sometimes, it's necessary to make unnecessary things necessary. Such as, making a somebody that is totally foreign to you smile because their face is just obviously plastered with sadness. These little things, for sure, will lighten up that somebody's day effortlessly. Life is short. We will never know when our soul will be taken by the Almighty. We will never know how long we have left to enjoy the life we're living now in this very world. So, what say you?

Carpe diem! (as long as it's still in the boundaries of His laws)

Just a little note, from me to you.

The Truth.

You know what your problem is? You get attached, fast. And once you’re attached to someone, you do everything you can to please them and make them happy. It’s never been about what you want, it’s always everyone’s needs before your own. You give out too many chances to people, who quite frankly, do not deserve them. They take advantage of you, and you become a pushover. But you’re okay with that, because they’re in your life and that’s all you ever really wanted. And even if they screw you over, you’ll still be there for them. Because that’s you, that who you are. Once you get attached to someone, they capture your heart and they always have a place there. And that is why it’s so hard for you to let him go.

- Some random tumblr.

Hidden Inside.

I've never been one of those type of gadis melayu that hold grudges against people. Peculiar and unexpected things that never ought to happen, happened. I tend to let it be. I let it be to the extent where others would think it would make such a lovely hobby to step all over me and thrash me continuously over time. As if they were the Mister Geppetto and I was the Pinocchio they had in control. Played. Lied at. Pushed away. But they all say. Let bygones, be bygones. That cliche quote I chant to myself to sleep every night, praying that the past will behave and stay as it is and not make a daring move to repeat itself. Praying that those in the past, shall remain as the past and not come up to me abruptly and drop a friendly hello that will naturally dishearten the soul.

Stay tough, girl. Keep that heart at rest.

Recovering.

Long awaited new post, eh? I've just been having those days where nothing post-worthy will somehow magically appear inside my darling mind. So wutsup?

Last month was a compilation of drama, drama and more drama with the self. Yeah, I tend to do lots of self-talking, self-quarreling and self-blaming. But I'm over it, Alhamdulillah for that. No longer that peculiar lass that sulks in the middle of the night, freaking her own self out. I just tend to get all melancholic at wrong timings. Been forcing myself to get the lazy self to go to driving classes every single weekend, which have been replacing my slothing around moments in my cosy bed with endless collection of movies. Which was indeed a wee bit stressful. My driving skills 70.12% depends on my au courant mood, that I can't deny. The times where I was all pissed off, that's the time where everything went wrong. Not pressing the clutch and controlling it well enough and shits like that. My mind tends to wonder off while driving as well. That aint a good thing either.. So, whoever that's hitching a ride with me. Pre-warning, you guys better watch out & get your headgears on.

Am I writing a recount or what?

Heck, who cares. Last week was filled with exams, exams and more exams. First mid-term exam ever in college, yo! No need to be all excited, Aisyah. You didn't do so well did you? Well that question will be answered next week.. or the week after.. or never. That sounded nicer. The exams weren't mind-confusing nor that eye-boogling or whatever you guys call it. Quite moderate. Probably this brain of mine is somehow still wondering in its fairytale wonderland hasn't awaken yet, just yet. I just need another wake up call. Just wait for the results man! If it's 3.5 and below, I'll probably find myself a ditch to hide and never be seen again. Just a thought. But, good news! The P license is in thy hands! Passed the JPJ test smoothly. Happy lass right here! Weren't so happy 'bout the JPJ instructors' attitude though. 2/10 for that mate, yes, I am rating you!

So, what's next? S bloody P bloody M result on the 21st March 2012. Aint all geared up yet to confront the truth but nothing but the truth. I'm just hoping for the best. I've tried my best. So, insyaAllah, with Allah's will, I will achieve whatever is the best for me. MRSM Langkawi, get ready your red carpets 'cos the Veace VII clan will be conquering the school again on the 21st!

Au revoir! Gonna enjoy some John Carter now!

Oh yeah, I need a pretty sleek new domain, anybody willing to chip in some ideas? That would be wonderful, thanks!

An Enigma.

Nothing in life is as perfect as we expected it to be. Regardless on how long we've planned it or how much effort we've put into it. Everything is in Allah's hands. Sometimes I tend to feel as if I've floated into some other realm, where sadness nor frustrations do not exist. Insecure, that's what it is. I tried to keep the unwanted feelings locked away, six feet under. But deep down, I know, I'll have to confront these things in life someday. Whether I like it or not. Everything in life happens for a reason. Right now, I'm striving my best to keep things real. Nothing should be able to play me and mock me around like a lifeless puppet anymore. Another fresh kick-off!

{A lil' something to ponder on;}

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.

Allah! There is no God but He,

the Living, the Self-subsisting, the Eternal.

No slumber can seize Him, nor sleep.

All things in heaven and earth are His.

Who could intercede in His presence without His permission?

He knows what appears in front of and behind His creatures.

Nor can they encompass any knowledge of Him except what he wills.

His throne extends over the heavens and the earth,

and He feels no fatigue in guarding and preserving them,

for He is the Highest and Most Exalted.

(Al Baqara: 255)

Back to square 1.

What am I up to lately?

This lass is now an official student of CFS IIUM PJ. 18 years old (still 13 at heart) and currently clueless and hopeless. To be honest, I'm a wee bit lost here. Everything is fantastic so far and I'm currently surviving! But then again, back to asrama life, the awesome thing is that this place is nearer to home compared to Langkawi. (well, duh) Class starts today and I'm hoping everything will turn out just fine, insyaAllah! :-)