Recovering.

Long awaited new post, eh? I've just been having those days where nothing post-worthy will somehow magically appear inside my darling mind. So wutsup?

Last month was a compilation of drama, drama and more drama with the self. Yeah, I tend to do lots of self-talking, self-quarreling and self-blaming. But I'm over it, Alhamdulillah for that. No longer that peculiar lass that sulks in the middle of the night, freaking her own self out. I just tend to get all melancholic at wrong timings. Been forcing myself to get the lazy self to go to driving classes every single weekend, which have been replacing my slothing around moments in my cosy bed with endless collection of movies. Which was indeed a wee bit stressful. My driving skills 70.12% depends on my au courant mood, that I can't deny. The times where I was all pissed off, that's the time where everything went wrong. Not pressing the clutch and controlling it well enough and shits like that. My mind tends to wonder off while driving as well. That aint a good thing either.. So, whoever that's hitching a ride with me. Pre-warning, you guys better watch out & get your headgears on.

Am I writing a recount or what?

Heck, who cares. Last week was filled with exams, exams and more exams. First mid-term exam ever in college, yo! No need to be all excited, Aisyah. You didn't do so well did you? Well that question will be answered next week.. or the week after.. or never. That sounded nicer. The exams weren't mind-confusing nor that eye-boogling or whatever you guys call it. Quite moderate. Probably this brain of mine is somehow still wondering in its fairytale wonderland hasn't awaken yet, just yet. I just need another wake up call. Just wait for the results man! If it's 3.5 and below, I'll probably find myself a ditch to hide and never be seen again. Just a thought. But, good news! The P license is in thy hands! Passed the JPJ test smoothly. Happy lass right here! Weren't so happy 'bout the JPJ instructors' attitude though. 2/10 for that mate, yes, I am rating you!

So, what's next? S bloody P bloody M result on the 21st March 2012. Aint all geared up yet to confront the truth but nothing but the truth. I'm just hoping for the best. I've tried my best. So, insyaAllah, with Allah's will, I will achieve whatever is the best for me. MRSM Langkawi, get ready your red carpets 'cos the Veace VII clan will be conquering the school again on the 21st!

Au revoir! Gonna enjoy some John Carter now!

Oh yeah, I need a pretty sleek new domain, anybody willing to chip in some ideas? That would be wonderful, thanks!

An Enigma.

Nothing in life is as perfect as we expected it to be. Regardless on how long we've planned it or how much effort we've put into it. Everything is in Allah's hands. Sometimes I tend to feel as if I've floated into some other realm, where sadness nor frustrations do not exist. Insecure, that's what it is. I tried to keep the unwanted feelings locked away, six feet under. But deep down, I know, I'll have to confront these things in life someday. Whether I like it or not. Everything in life happens for a reason. Right now, I'm striving my best to keep things real. Nothing should be able to play me and mock me around like a lifeless puppet anymore. Another fresh kick-off!

{A lil' something to ponder on;}

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.

Allah! There is no God but He,

the Living, the Self-subsisting, the Eternal.

No slumber can seize Him, nor sleep.

All things in heaven and earth are His.

Who could intercede in His presence without His permission?

He knows what appears in front of and behind His creatures.

Nor can they encompass any knowledge of Him except what he wills.

His throne extends over the heavens and the earth,

and He feels no fatigue in guarding and preserving them,

for He is the Highest and Most Exalted.

(Al Baqara: 255)

Back to square 1.

What am I up to lately?

This lass is now an official student of CFS IIUM PJ. 18 years old (still 13 at heart) and currently clueless and hopeless. To be honest, I'm a wee bit lost here. Everything is fantastic so far and I'm currently surviving! But then again, back to asrama life, the awesome thing is that this place is nearer to home compared to Langkawi. (well, duh) Class starts today and I'm hoping everything will turn out just fine, insyaAllah! :-)

Au Revoir.

Ha-ha! It's already the 31st December!

There's nothing much to say about this year, except that 2011 had been a hell of a ride! Well, not hell, prolly heaven? Ok prolly not. So, it had been a wonderful.. Would you call it wonderful with those moments where you just feel like choking yourself to death by using Famous Amos cookies due to the uncontrollable stress? Ok. Mhm.. We'll just say, it had been a full-of-experience ride, even though it doesn't make sense. Right. Thank you Allah for this year!

I can't be arsed to elaborate more or summarized this year, like the old days. Till then! Happy New Year!

May 2012 be better than 2011! InsyaAllah. :-)

No Title.

Bonjour. I'm really good at neglecting things lately.. including this blog of mine. It would be really a miracle if I somehow rejuvenate my blogging skills again.

So, wazzapening? I have an L in hand! Next up, the driving classes & shit. But I swear, I'm gonna snuggle myself under a few layers thick of winter clothing because the room is that freezing cold and will be sleeping instead. Just smashin'! I find myself awaken by morning texts each day that naturally carves a smile on my face and the to-do list from mother. That pretty much brightened up my day, literally. Had the chance to watch STOMP in KLCC kudos to Kak Ngah, everything starting from the story line and dancing and steps were the same since the last time I saw it which was around 5 years ago. I still enjoyed it! ..with a few mild naps. Endless movies and TV shows kept me occupied the whole month until I have no longer have any God damn ideas on what to do. & Been cooking lunch and dinner each day to revamp my forgotten cooking skills because boarding schools doesn't supply a kitchen for the students. Not that I care now..

What else? Comic Fiesta, Mission Impossible 4, Senior Night.. Everything compiled in a day, probably the best day ever, even though it was slightly filled with embarrassing moments. But still, managed to catch up with the in-news and whatnots. Love! And the day after, I was with Asma, lost in China Town in Cheras (prolly I was the one that was lost) and watched Alexander's showcase.. Being a non-KPop fan, drowned in a sea of KPop fans literally shrieking Xander's name perpetually, it was plain horrid. I swear. Thank God my other half was there to keep me occupied via phone or else, I'd be sitting like a hobo somewhere in the VIP pit while the others were singing along and going bonkers to some foreign tunes that I hardly give a damn about. He wasn't even hot. Period.

And hey! It's nearly the end of the month/year. Conclusion? December has been an unproductive month. Bravo Aisyah, Bravo!

Throw Me Up.

Had an urge to blog, but currently at the wretched phase where you just wish to vanish into thin air without any valid reasons.

Something alike.

“ And as we stray further from love
We multiply the words,
Words and sentences long and orderly.
Had we remained together
We could have become a silence.”
-Yehuda Amichai, (trans. Assia Gutmann) from “Quick and Bitter ”