I've longed for perfection, no less.

Current reads :-

A perfect book + The comfiest bed ever = Love!

Synopsis: Harriet Rose, like any other teenager, is naive, overconfident and has always felt she has something important to say. However, unlike most of her peers, her hero is Marcus Aurelius, in imitation of whom she has been composing philosophical reflections on life for some time. When Harriet’s father dies, the urge to write these meditations is greater than ever. Then, on her fourteenth birthday, she receives a unique gift. Her doting mother and grandmother have had her by-now-substantial collection of meditations published. Having appointed themselves roles — Mother: publicist; Nana: sales rep; Harriet: esteemed author — they vow to get the book into the hands of a wide readership. Once this formidable team gets into gear, there’s no holding back, and Harriet is hurled into a lifestyle that not even she, in all her infinite wisdom, could have been prepared for. Bookshop orders soon stack up, and Harriet is plunged into a whirlwind of launch parties, newspaper coverage and television appearances. But is all this attention exactly what she thinks? And, more importantly, can her happiness — or her naivete - last?

This was a delightful read - light and uplifting with touches of humour. It’s an unusual book and Harriet is a wonderful anti-hero; even during her arrogant and misguided moments you find yourself completely onside willing her to overcome the various obstacles she faces. I defy anyone not to have a favourite Harriet Rose meditation by the end of the book.

There are some who brush against your life
With the gentle touch of an angel's wing
Never knowing how much joy
That touch can bring
Your paths may never cross
You will not know them
But in their hearts
They'll hear a young girl sing


A wonderful dreamer

Prepare to be envy :-

Oh how I wish I was her. Who doesn't?


So skeptical

   /ˈdʒɛləsi/ [jel-uh-see]
–noun, plural -ous⋅ies.
1. jealous resentment against a rival, a person enjoying success or advantage, etc., or against another's success or advantage itself.
2. mental uneasiness from suspicion or fear of rivalry, unfaithfulness, etc., as in love or aims.
3. vigilance in maintaining or guarding something.
4. a jealous feeling, disposition, state, or mood.

In other words, a person's fears and anxieties around attention that they perceive is being given to or by someone else who is important to them. True, no? I claim to have been jealous of something or somebody in my life. Well, everybody do get jealous now and then. But then sometimes jealousy will actually ruin somebody's feelings whatsoever and it will form some type of conflicts throughout your friendship and such. I usually receive these type of jealousy from close friends and the people that are surrounding me. But, I don't really mind that much now. And I'd learn to take it easy, ignore and deal with it or just find another way around it. A wee bit typical, yes?

P.S/ This post is not dedicated to anybody at all. So, whatevs.


Gedik 12

The hottest post for today :- Twilight! My friends and I escaped the house for Twilight today and overall, the movie was fine. But, nothing could beat the ol' book. Could it. It was an all day outing from noon till night due to the traffic jam and heavy rain. So yeah, I had fun. And, I'm pretty much skint now.


some rhetorical questions

Nothing to blog. Then, why blog?

I've waited for 3 hours now, for The Clique to load. And guess what, it had only loaded 14 minutes. Jolly good. I've wasted my time a lot today. I repeat, a lot!



When the animal attacks the bookcase:-

Too cute to resist, no?

free cherries

things you say are magic
and i love when you are being poetic
you are funny and foolish
but of course, never once ghoulish
i adore the way you adore me
and how you sing your do re mi
in my dreams, you are free,
running around endlessly, under a cherry tree
someday you'll be even more charming
and to be asked to forget you would be the hardest thing
so i guess, i'll stick to remembering
you and all your other upbringing


Roar or Meaow?

Mr. Spotty seems to adore hanging on the bookshelf and spying on what Aisyah is doing. (gasp!) I was rummaging through all of the unopened boxes outside my bomb shell and found this little guy which I'd bought in Manchester a few years ago. And found a shoe box full of sticky notes (no idea where those came from), must be Mummy's.


Silent remains

Death Cab For Cutie - Styrofoam Plates

Still loving this since 2002.

There's a saltwater film on the jar of your ashes; I threw them to the sea,
but a gust blew them backwards and the sting in my eyes
that you then inflicted was par for the course just as when you were living.
It's no stretch to say you were not quite a father
but the donor of seeds to a poor, single mother that would raise us alone.
We never saw the money that went down your throat
through the hole in your belly.

Thirteen years old in the suburbs of Denver,
standing in line for Thanksgiving dinner at the Catholic church.
The servers wore crosses to shield from the sufferance plaguing the others.
Styrofoam plates, cafeteria tables,
charity reeks of cheap wine and pity and I'm thinking of you,
I do every year when we count all our blessings
and wonder what we're doing here.

You're a disgrace to the concept of family.
The priest won't divulge that fact in his homily
and I'll stand up and scream if the mourning remain quiet,
you can deck out a lie in a suit.
But I won't buy it.
I won't join the procession that's speaking their piece,
using five dollar words while praising his integrity.
Just 'cause he's gone, it doesn't change that fact:
he was bastard in life, thus a bastard in death yeah.

Bury the hatchet

I had a riot with Munirah and Nina last night at their crib. We was berlesquing and was on a crack. Serious shit. It was side-splitting. I could hardly stop laughing. Gossips were entirely in and were there during our conversation from beginning till end plus those unforgotten memories and just some others to laugh at.

Nina: Stop being such a bozo!




My parents dragged me to The Curve last night. I took an advantage on buying some holiday survival items for self, which are obviously books from Borders. So, a wish granted. Took home :- Peaches by Jodi Lynn Anderson, Eragon by Christopher Paolini, New Moon by Stephanie Meyer and My lost and found life by Melodie Bowsher. Now, time to set in motion!

Maybe I was a wee bit out of date on buying Eragon and New Moon. I just needed something to add to my book collection in the room and for surviving the tedious break, although I've read them online.


Green Grass Of Tunnel

Múm - Green Grass Of Tunnel

Down from my ceiling
Drips great noise
It drips on my head through a hole in the roof

Behind these two hills here
There's a pool

And when I'm swimming in
Through a tunnel
I shut my eyes

Inside the cabin I make sounds
In through the tubes I send this noise

Behind these two hills here
Fall asleep
And when I float in green grass of tunnel
It flows back

Down from my ceiling
Drips great noise

It drips on my head through a hole in the roof

Behind these two hills here
There's a pool
And when I'm swimming in
Through a tunnel
I shut my eyes.

An excellent and a stunning piece.

my so-called bro is so cool.

Corrections. More like gedik and bajet gila nak mati. True, no? Joke. He's actually really really really kind? (sah you tengah kembang gila bila baca benda ni). This actually guy hears a lot of my blabs everyday, yes everyday. Kalau tak dengar, tak sah, kan kan? I create a lot of problems, and he's like the solving machine. He is what they call, the clever clog. This little git is really good at playing guitar, I mean seriously good. I enjoy forcing him to play sometimes. And I have no idea macam mana he copes talking with me everyday because I get tired of myself sometimes. You're the best, bro! (Coughs)



The little chirpers

Don't chu just love the love birds above? :-)

My cousins and Grandma came over on Tuesday. So, havoc in the house, as usual. And we took the whole lot to Bird Park, Kuala Lumpur yesterday. It was utterly fun, with the little cousie running around hyperactive-like and me chasing the little cousie for the whole time. I haven't been out with my little cousies for ages, so yeah, I'd pretty much enjoyed it. Especially the part where we all ran after the birds and messing about. Plus the eating-ice-cream part! I can still smell it! Kidding. After all that, we had nasi briyani for lunch, so I was completely bloated for the whole day. And straight headed for the bed after that for a few hours after I reached home. Oh, it is love!

Munirah and Nina and Kak Atin are coming over today! Well, hopefully. Ready for How to Make Sushi Take 2?


Big brova?

I like pretty flowers in my blog! Okay. Just random spills for today. I felt like blogging for no reason. Well, maybe there was a reason (because of the so-called bro). But then, I would just crap all the way anyway. (Grins) I'm currently waiting for Maddy to get me those God-damn dresses that she showed to me the other day. Opaque- yet, lovely! And, I can't really wait for this Thursday, my girls, Munirah and Nina are coming over for a sleepover. Which will be the 2nd sleepover in Malaysia, or 3rd. They are the ones that keeps me hyped up early in the morning with those serious shit funny jokes. Including the remake (parody) of Jade and Shilpa Poppadom's cat fight in Big Brother 2007. Good memories. And the video of How to make sushi is just the classic, innit? So, we'll be making a Take 2 for that! Oh yes. I'm indeed is getting all psyched because I haven't been anywhere at all. Excluding my mum's birthday dinner at One Utama. I just need some time to enjoy and have fun will all my beloved. Hopefully that will happen on the 27th. Pretty much looking forward to it! ;-)

& the lad is so sweeeeeeeeeet.



That doesn't matter nomore.

Another Cadbury Hazelnut for today! (ZOMG) I bet you're thinking something like, no wonder this girl is getting fatter each day. Whatevs. No new news. Just that.. Twilight is in 11 days! You got that? 11 freaking days!


Cravings, granted.

I'm over it. Oh yeah! Today, was really fun! (Sarcasm, again) I had to go to Petaling Jaya for some Amateur Radio Exam's revision class for the whole day. I repeat, the whole damn day! But, I was pretty much happy when my dad bought me the irresistible Cadbury Hazelnut Chocolate! Hell yeah! Love you dad! And I snatched a bottle of Pepsi and Pringles (ambil kesempatan) So then, I'm well covered with more layers of fat. I love me! (Self-obsessed, ugh?) This class thingy majig, will continue tomorrow, and yes again. The whole damn day of tomorrow. Another Cadbury and Pepsi for me tomorrow then? (Grins) And, I haven't been feeling so well lately. (So, time for some Panadol, which I hate the most)


I had a lust.



Last day

Last day of school was okay. May not be awesome, but it was all fine. Went smoothly. The lasagna was finished, thank God. And I had fun and enjoyed myself! And I've got No. 9. (Jakun! First time dapat Top 10. Pathetic, much?)

(Well, well, what can you say, good friends? :-P)

(When paparazzi attacks us. Dude, we was just watching Love Guru)

(No, so not the ladies men)

Thanks Siti for the pictures ;-)

Brownies attack!

No, I'm not addicted to DoTA. I'm not. I'm not. Am I? Can't resist it. (sigh) I just finished shoving the uncooked lasagna in the oven. Now, I just have to wait for an hour plus-plus. Next up, brownies. No mood at all! And cleaning up time, the worst time ever. God-damn it? Oh yeah, I could play Far Far by Yael Naim on my guitar. (show off, jap)



Have I ever told you how much I adore tulips?

.. especially those ones in Holland. They are love!


Happy? (shakes head)

The end-of-year mark is a major turn down. 5A 2B 1C (sigh) + A for Art. Hopefully, I won't be moving down a class. It would be such a pity and yeah, I do care and am worried. We was all jolly-like before we've received our papers before and was moody after it. It was back to Truth or Dare and Uno, and I was hogging Raqib's iPod, watched Love Guru with Hezrin. And I cooked nasi goreng for ERT! Serious shit, sedap! (perasan jap) But then one of the guys kept complaining about the saltines and actually continued eating them, fag. Bet they can't resist Aisyah's wonderful cooking. (Perasan take 2!) So wait till Thursday for my irresistible lasagna. (Pearasan take 3!) Okay, ignore. I have no idea why I have no mood to read Breaking Dawn or any books at all. It's unnatural. I need to clean my bedroom up!


It's God-damn Tuesday! Hell yeah! It's between Breaking Dawn VS DoTA. Which one is going to going down to the core?! Obviously, DoTA. Out of my list for now. Last night, I was seriously God-damn confused with DoTA. The game corrupts your brain for goodness sake. Something like Runescape, but just more confusing. Even with a few guidance from mes amis. And school starts today, it will be Truth or Dare, Uno and some other craps will be on. But, Truth or Dare is a must!

Friday's Truth or Dare, it was sidesplitting. And the deputy headteacher was peeking from the top floor. And note: I was fussy.

Yael Naim - Far Far


Crazy Mondays

I feel like bloody typing bloody something bloody right now. (Enough with the bloody-s.) I'm currently trap in my room and there's no where to go. The blood rushes to the brain too quickly till I feel like vomiting. The guitar is useless and doesn't entertain me much. The phone is kept on silent, no more disturbances. I'm here sitting on the chair, figuring out what to do next. I need to get out, to have fun, to shop, to have Javachip frappucino in thy hand. Maybe sitting at a silent corner in Borders will do; while enjoying Breaking Dawn, which I haven't finished reading yet. Oh puh-lease! I'm dying here. Can't you see?

I need new dresses! And yes, shoes and bags and all the things you could think off. All the things that a girl would crave for, that's what I need. A new decorated room would be nice too, getting bored of all the pink in the room. A huge bar of Cadbury will calm me down. But, too bad I'd gobbled them all up the other day. I'm left with nothing. Just my boring old self and the holy laptop ready to be sacrificed. (I'm crapping now. Sad, much?) I would rather be at school learning History than a full 24 hours with nothing to do. Brains corrupted again. God-damn it. Okay, I'm so going back to Runescape for this end-of-year holiday. Easy as that.

17 more days till Twilight! Yeah baby.


Will you marry me?


Potluck at sister's nursery, I was completely exhausted. But then, Syamim and Jazli (Jazlina/Anerosick) came and brought the hype again. Missed them both alot! The best childhood friends ever since I was born. And Jazli was making all these hilarious stupid jokes and kept taking a mick out of me (not fun). Played Halo on the holy laptop and screamed my lungs out, just like the old days. And had dinner at Alpha Angle with the ladies, steamboat for last night. I remembered the last time I ate there, it was horrid, to tell the truth. This time, all of us was laughing all night long to Kak Cat's jokes and imitations. You guys would love it.


A wake up call from the lad in the morn and got ready for Zoo Negara. I had no mood today, PMS? I wasn't really that talkative, more to quiet except with Hannah. I actually blurt out nearly everything in my mind, not really, but yeah. And Hannah was all like, she misses us dating together and kneeled down and said, "Will you marry me?" Killed it. Seriously, tak boleh blah. Then it rained heavily and we ran for our lives. We was stranded at the entrance of Zoo Negara due to the heavy rain. So, hung out near a phone box, the others was making prank calls and took a few numbers from mine (no idea who's). Yeah, I had alot of fun with the girls. Love you girls loads.


I find it typically boring.

It's like payday for the workers/me. Alas, exams are over. And I'm like, seriously half dead. Nothing much I could do now. Except for daydreaming and eating as much as I like until I become an obese. Long night chats, calls, the common routine will be continued. Waiting for text messages and IM all day long, the typical. Back to the old routine about having books in my hand in school.

& Lil J is heading for the runaway. (As in, run-away)

Yael Naim - Far Far

Far far, there's this little girl
she was praying for something to happen to her
everyday she writes words and more words
just to spit out the thoughts that keep floating inside
and she's strong when the dreams come cos' they
take her, cover her, they are all over
the reality looks far now, but don't go

How can you stay outside?
there's a beautiful mess inside
how can you stay outside?
there's a beautiful mess inside
oh oh oh oh

Far far, there's this little girl
she was praying for something good to happen to her
from time to time there are colors and shapes
dazzling her eyes, tickling her hands
they invent her a new world with
oil skies and aquarel rivers
but don't you run away already
please don't go oh oh

How can you stay outside?
there's a beautiful mess inside
how an you stay outside?
there's a beautiful mess inside

Take a deep breath and dive
there's a beautiful mess inside
how can you stay outside?
There's a beautiful mess
beautiful mess inside

Oh beautiful, beautiful

Far far there's this little girl
she was praying for something big to happen to her
every night she hears beautiful strange music
it's everywhere there's nowhere to hide
but if it fades she begs
"oh lord don't take it from me, don't take it"

She says, "I guess i'll have to give it birth
to give it birth
i guess, i guess, i guess i have to give it birth
i guess i have to, have to give it birth
there's a beautiful mess inside and it's everywhere

Just look at yourself now
deep inside
deeper than you ever dared
there's a beautiful mess inside
beautiful mess inside

Love the lyric.


Out from the blue

Today, at 6.30pm will be the end of the nightmare.

Ever thought of somebody doing some ridiculous things, just for you? Trying to get you in anyway at all, or keep you and be close with you, just for you. (Aisyah, you have to stop writing these pieces of shits) End. I just can't wait till the end of today. Freedom. Not exactly, but yeah. Party! (Geez, Science and Kemahiran Hidup left) Holy cow. Yesterday, my tuition friends (le guys), they're getting all hyped up because we're going to start our lessons with Science, Chapter 4 - Reproduction. Sore losers. And they are so well dirty minded, and laughs their knuckle heads of because of the word burung and telur ayam. Pathetic, yes? And I think, I'll be getting ready for a sprint anytime in school today. If only I was Edward, with those ahmazing running skills. People wouldn't even notice. Quit dreaming. Back to reality and studying!

(Snatched from Zara)
Something that cheered me up this morning.


Is it?

What is a compliment?

1) an expression of praise, commendation, or admiration
2) a formal act or expression of civility, respect, or regard
3) compliments, a courteous greeting; good wishes; regards
4) Archaic. a gift; present.

And too much of these will surely annoy you or even better, drive you crazy. I like receiving compliments, to tell the truth. Most of them will put a smile on my face or even a grin, if you're lucky. But, those over the top ones are just out of my list. Agree, no? I'm having a hard life putting up with all of the unexplainable shits. Yes, I am. A helping hand, please?

And God! I envy all those end-of-year pictures that the sVians are uploading. Made me miss my old days and those fun, with those friends. The true and real friends, that I could trust and talk with. Yes, them.

Today, it's History and Civic. So, bye for now!


Not-so perf!


Plans for this end-of-year holiday (well, not-so what you call holiday) :-

1) 09/11 - Zoo Negara with the girls (Hannah wanted to see her long-lost-boyfie)
2) 16/11 - RAE (Radio Amateur Exam) Classes. Dang it!
3) ??/11 - Sleepover with the lassies, the lovely Munirah & Ninally!
4) ??/11 - Shop! Shop! Shop!
5) 27/11 - Twilight! Cineleisure with mes amis. Twilighters, see ya!

To be continued..

Anybody that's willing to rescue me this holiday?



Late nights, early mornings. I've just earned a couple hours for sleeping for the past few days. Due to the empty addictive conversations with mes amis plus the race who will be the early bug for the day, so it ends around nearly to 4-ish. And be surprised, the legend MMORPG, Runescape is back in my vocab! (you wish- quit means quit!) I'm stuck now, with la new boyfriend, History book. And he is ever-so boring and makes me go all wild (in a bad away!) I tend to sleep on it instead of reading it.

And when the boredom strikes, below is the outcome:

Have You Ever...

[/]Played Spin the Bottle?
[ ]Toilet Paper someone's house
[ ]Played Poker with money
[ ]Gone swimming in a white T-shirt
[/]been tickled so hard you couldn't talk
[/]like someone but never told them
[/]went camping
[ ]had a crush on your brother's friend
[/]walk in the rain without an umbrella
[/]told a joke that nobody thought was funny
[/]been in a talent show
[/]started laughing at someone's bedtime
[/]worn something your mom didn't approve of
[ ]been to a nude beach
[ ]drank jack daniels
[ ]cursed in a church
[ ]been called a slut for kissing someone
[/]burnt yourself with a curling iron/straightener
[ ]wanted to be a police officer
[ ]dumped someone
[ ]been hit on by someone too old
[ ]wanted to be a model
[ ]bought lottery tickets
[ ]made out in a car
[/]cried during a movie
[/]wanted something you couldn't have
[ ]had sex on the beach
[ ]had the drink sex on the beach
[/]seen someone shoplift
[/]hung up on someone
[/]yelled at your pet
[ ]bought a thong when the cashier was a guy
[ ]tried to strip when drunk
[/]gotten seasick
[/]had a stalker
[/]played a prank on someone that had them really scared
[/]been embarrassed by one of your family
[/]felt bad about eating meat
[ ]protested
[/]been to an island
[ ]been in love
[/]ate just because you were bored
[/]looked at something everybody thought was ugly and said "aww"
[/]Screamed in a library
[ ]Made out with a stranger
[ ]Been Dumped
[/]Wished a part of you was different
[ ]asked a guy to dance
[/]been asked out by a really hot guy
[/]laughed so hard out cried
[ ]went up to a complete stranger and started talking
[/]been sunburned
[ ]kicked a guy in the nuts for being a pervert
[ ]threw up in school
[/]received an anonymous love letter
[/]had to wear something you hated
[ ]been to a luau
[ ]say your ex and wanted to kick his ass
[/]cursed in front of your parents
[ ]been in a commercial on tv
[ ]watched a movie that made you miss your ex
[/]been out of the country
[ ]been honked at by some guy when you were walking down the sidewalk
[/]won at pool
[ ]went to a party where you were the only sober one
[ ]went on a diet
[ ]been lost out to sea
[ ]cheated on your bf/gf
[ ]been cheated on
[ ]tanned topless
[ ]been attacked by seagulls
[ ]been searched in an airport
[/]been on a plane
[ ]been pants-ed
[/]thrown a shoe at someone
[ ]broke someone's heart
[/]sung in the shower
[/]bought something way too expensive
[/]done something really stupid that you still laugh about
[/]been walked in on when you were dressing
[ ]ran out of a movie theater because you were too scared of the movie
[ ]been kicked out of the mall
[/]been mean to someone then instantly wanted to take it back
[/]been given a detention on the worst day that you could get one
[ ]done something stupid when you were drunk
[ ]fell off your roof
[/]pretended you were scared so you could cuddle up with someone
[ ]had a deer jump in from of your car
[/]threatened someone with a water gun

Can you....

[ ]Unwrap a starburst with your tongue
[/]open your eyes underwater
[/]eat whatever you want and not have to worry
[/]ice skate
[/]sing in front of a crowd
[/]be a bitch at times
[ ]do thirty pull ups
[/]walk in really high heals
[/]eat super spicy foods
[ ]skateboard
[/]sleep with the lights on
[ ]touch your nose with your tongue
[/]fall asleep easily in the car
[ ]do the cotton eye joe
[ ]play ddr and not fall
[ ]surf
[/]fit in your locker
[ ]do a split
[/]taste the difference between pepsi and coke

Stole from Fatin Najwa!